Letting Go

Good Morning Dear Beautiful Souls!

Have you ever wondered what your life would be like if you let go of all of your fears and starting living the life you were intended to?  I used to sit and ponder the “what ifs” and could never see past the life experiences and how they had affected me.  I am here to tell you today that life beyond is beautiful and amazing!

Growing up I lived in a conundrum.  I had had one parent who praised everything and the other tore everything I did down.  Living in such confusion caused me to question and overthink everything.  I found myself working so hard trying to please the one who found fault in everything I did, In the process, I learned to “feel” nothing I did was right.  It was that feeling I carried into my adult life.  I became a “people pleaser”.  I was so busy trying to be what everyone else expected me to be and do what they expected, I completely lost the person who I was supposed to be; the person I was sent here to this earth at this time to be.  Every time that person tried to emerge, I  would stuff her back down.  No, I can’t do that, say that, be that because it would make me a disappointment to those around me.  I can’t let the real me be seen or heard because she might offend someone.  As time progressed, and that person inside me continually tried to fight her way out, it caused me to be resentful, spiteful, and angry.

It is my belief we are uniquely made with a specific purpose to accomplish.  When we are born, we sometimes forget our purpose in the process of birth.   When our soul starts to remember it’s purpose it will try to emerge, but sometimes the things we are taught by our parents, peers, and society will cause us not to pick up the torch and follow the path.  Instead, we follow the path of least resistance not wanting to disrupt the norm.   Yet there comes a time when we come to a crossroad in our lives and we have to make a decision.  My crossroad experience appeared 4 years ago and I had to make the decision which road I would take.  One of my all-time favorite poems is “Road Less Traveled” by Robert Frost.  As I stood at my “crossroad”  I examined the possibilities down each path.  I could either remain stagnated on the path I was on, a path of resentment, bitterness, and anger, or I could explore the “road less traveled” and explore new possibilities of freedom from the things that had held me back all those years.  I chose the “road less traveled” and today I am experiencing a freedom I never had before.  It has been a LONG road and the journey has not been the easiest.  I started it with lots of baggage.  Some of the bags I just dropped along the way.  Others had to be unpacked and the contents burned in the fire of purification.  I am so grateful I chose the path I did.  I have been able to release the things that held me back and now I have grown the wings to soar to new heights.  No more walking through the mire of the mundane.  I now fly above it.




“Sometimes when we’re angry we say things we never meant to say…those words are enough to break a heart and injure a soul.  Anger makes our brain work less and our tongue works more.  Once said those words can’t be taken back and sometimes break a healthy relationship.  So, think before you speak and when angry keep silent…Your silence may hurt the ones you love but your nasty words can break them and damage them beyond repair.”  Neena Gupta

First, I want to apologize.  I have been tied up trying to help an organization, I am sorry to say, and the whole thing ended very badly.  Instead of being a creation that would bring joy to people, it ended up being a burden and in the end exploded into a barrage of ill-spoken words which cut to the core, damaged relationships and wounded hearts and souls.

I am a strong believer in using your voice and not allowing others to control you.  However, there are times when it is better to remain silent, especially if your words are going to be damaging to others.  In the above situation, maybe I should have spoken out more.  In a group situation, it’s good to have a leader, but everyone should have an equal voice.  We allowed one person to have all the power and this is what ultimately brought the demise of the group.  When others started standing up, speaking out, the “leader” decided to cut us all to the core with her words.  The whole group collapsed, and in the wake, damage that cannot be repaired.  Forgiveness can be saught, yet the scars remain.  If you are the one who is wounded, though it may be a hard thing to do, forgive.  Not for the person who wounded you, but for your own soul.

So, dear souls, always be mindful of your words.  And as my Grandmother always told me, if your words do not make others feel good, stay silent.




Let’s Be Real

Blessed New Moon, Dear Souls,

I believe in being completely authentic.  I don’t know about you but one of my pet peeves is fake people.  You know the ones I mean, on the outside they are all smiles and make you think things are just hunky dory hiding behind their personalities, their false faces, their false words. In reality,  if you could look through the frosted glass of their lives, they are a mess.  Their relationships are a mess, their house is a mess, their finances are a mess.  They tell you how to live your lives and cast judgment on you, yet theirs is nothing but chaos behind closed doors.

I will make you a promise right here and now, I will always be authentic.  I won’t tell you to do something I haven’t already done or am doing now to better my life.  I struggle with or have struggled with things just the same as you do.  Many things I have overcome, and there are things I am still struggling greatly with.  It is part of who we are and our purpose here on this place called Earth.  We didn’t come here to be perfectly ascended beings.  We came here to learn and grow, and in doing so help others on their paths also.  It is not our responsibility to walk their path for them or tell them how to walk it.  As we become enlightened in some area, it is our responsibility to share that with others, yet, we are to not demand they accept it as their own.  The nuggets we learn along our path may only be for us, our own treasure, or they may be meant to be shared for the betterment of the whole tribe.

My grandmother used to tell me a story that illustrates this principle.

A young man had been hunting for many days and was unable to get any meat for his tribe because animals were scarce in the area.  Finally, a rabbit ran across his path and he was able to kill it.  He looked down at the rabbit in his hands thinking it would not be enough for his whole tribe, so he sat down, cooked and ate it.

I immediately judged this young man.  How selfish of him to eat the whole rabbit himself when his tribe was also hungry and they could have made stew and everyone had something to eat.  My grandmother patted my hand and admonished me for my judgment.  ” If he had not consumed that small rabbit, he wouldn’t have had the energy to go on and look for something bigger for the tribe.  Sometimes we are given small morsels for ourselves to give us the energy and knowledge to go on and discover bigger and better things to share with the tribe.  We cannot serve the tribe if we are starving ourselves.

What does this have to do with being authentic?  If you are putting on a false face to the world, making everyone think you have it all together so you are an authority on how to tell them how to run their lives, yet, your life is falling apart behind the scenes, you are not only robbing yourself of your energy, you are also robbing your tribe of the bigger blessing.   Keep it real and be willing to admit you don’t have all the answers.  Not only will it gain you the respect of your tribe, but it will also gain you respect and honor of the Universe from where your blessings and abundance flows.







Greetings and Salutations Beautiful Souls

First, I must apologize for my lack of posting these past few weeks.  I allowed life to give me a beat down and cloud my focus.  The saying “if it is too good to be true, it probably is,” came to life for us a couple weeks ago.  A friend, or so we thought, bought a bar and told us we were part owners with no monetary investment.  We learned this to mean, “I own the bar, but you do all the work.”  After a week of trying to help him run the place properly, we had to walk away.  We spent many hours, and sleepless nights, during that week trying to take this young man and help him become a successful business owner, to no avail.  The end result was my ending up very ill.  I have a chronic liver problem stemming from internal injuries from my accident in 2112.  When I get worn down physically, the least little bug can be catastrophic for me, and my body rebels against me.  I was literally down for a week with the flu bug and in the meantime, my liver and pancreas trying to shut down.  It was not pleasant, to say the least.  Thanks to my wonderful daughter and her kitchen magic, I have made a full recovery.

Complacency, the acid that can deteriorate your foundation.  If we allow yourselves to become complacent in just one area of our lives, it can cause a cascading effect in every area.   This is why it is so important we practice mindfulness in our everyday lives.   Starting before we even get out of bed, our first thought should be of gratitude for even a little rest during the night.  If you are like me, I have nights when I am awakened several times during the night and feel like I have had no rest at all.  Yet even the short intervals of rest are better than no rest at all.   I had become so complacent in my daily life that I didn’t even realize my foundation was cracking.  Then something comes along and BAM, you are not in any position to handle it mentally, physically or spiritually.

There is not much you can do when you are sick, except sit and think.  I did a lot of self-examining during this time of illness and realized I had been lax in a lot of my daily rituals.   Gratitude, being thankful for the small things.  Self-care, taking care of oneself body, mind and spirit.  Sharing love-the art of serving others.  I had gotten so wrapped up in other things, I forgot to daily reinforce my foundation.   I allowed my chakra system to become completely unbalanced, which caused my physical system to be unbalanced allowing the opening for dis-ease to enter my temple.

Today, I renewed my commitment to me and my daily rituals.  I renewed my commitment to being mindful in all I do.  I renewed my commitment to having a heart of gratitude.  I am renewing my commitment to you, my tribe, to be of love and service to you.   Will you join me in rebuilding the foundation of our lives?   A temple without a good foundation will crumble and fall and then it is of no use or service to anyone.



The Muffler Affect

Good Afternoon Beautiful Souls,

How many of you have sat down on Sunday evening and set your intentions for the following week?  You get that excited feeling inside thinking, “I have my list of things to accomplish now and nothing is going to stop me…Because I have a list!”  Then Monday afternoon rolls around and someone calls needing help and you go help them.  No problem, I will just move the Monday tasks to Tuesday.  Then Tuesday morning, you wake up and one of the kids, or a pet, or your husband is ill and you spend the day taking them to the doctor.  You sit down Tuesday night and look at the list with a sigh and move Monday and Tuesday’s tasks to your Wednesday list.   Tuesday night you get no rest worrying about how you are going to accomplish 3 days worth of tasks in one day and you awake Wednesday morning completely exhausted with a list staring you in the face.  Try as you might, you just don’t have the energy to complete one single task from the Monday through Wednesday list, so you veg out on the couch in front of the television all day.  You go to bed early Wednesday night because sitting around vegging is more tiring than working a full 8 hour shift.   Finally, you get a good night’s sleep because of sheer exhaustion and awaken full of energy and start tackling your list which now included Monday through Thursday.  You’re on a roll and getting things accomplished in record time and your phone rings.  You teeter with the dilemma of whether to answer it or not.  Finally, with a long sigh you answer it and low and behold it is another crisis someone is asking you to help with or solve!   Argggg!  You look at your list and wonder if you are ever going to get anything accomplished.   Then the resentment sets in.  “Why can’t people just leave me alone so I can get things done!”    Can anyone else relate to this?

The past two weeks, I have set clear intentions for the whole week on Sunday.  And, due to life happening, my intentions have went right out the door, along with my patience and peace.  There were things, important things, that did not get accomplished because I was stressing over the little things.   I learned a very valuable lesson, once again, the hard way.   Don’t set your intentions too far ahead, and set solid boundaries.  Chose your battles wisely.  Once you have set your course, allow your intuition to guide you.  My main flaw is I want to help everyone and fix everything.   I have learned my responsibility is to keep myself,  my household, and my family on track first.  Then my attention should be on my business and working to make it grow.  Any time left over can be dedicated to helping others.  One of my favorite quotes is, ” You can’t pour from an empty cup.” (I don’t know who first said it but my mentor, Lisa, says it often.)

I have adopted a new routine.   Each morning, before I even get out of bed, I express my gratitude for another day here on this earth.  Then I take three deep breaths.  With the first breath, I release yesterday as it cannot be changed.  With the second breath, I release tomorrow as it has not appeared yet.   With the third breath,  I thank the gods and goddesses there is nothing that will happen during the day that I cannot handle, and ask for help to handle it with grace and patience.   Does it always work that way?  No, but when something happens during the day to throw me off kilter, I stop and take my three breaths again.  I now set my intentions on a daily basis instead of weekly.  That way I am not disappointed or discouraged in myself for not following though.  If something happens to change my plans, I ask myself, ” will this serve my life purpose, or is it me trying to save the world again?”  Then, I act accordingly.   And, I have released myself from feelings of guilt or worry about how others will preceive me if I set a boundary and they don’t like it.   Life is short and I do not have time for foolishness, pettiness or drama in my life anymore.   The muffler affect is dreaming your are a muffler and waking up exhausted.