Gaining Freedom in Your Soul

Blessings Dear Souls,

Yesterday I spoke about letting go. It is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I was the girl in school who everybody loved to either pick on or ignore. I was never good enough for the social classes, wasn’t bad enough for the rough crowd, wasn’t physically able to fit in with the jocks, I wasn’t smart enough to hang with the intellectuals. Because of that, I grew up feeling I had to be what others wanted just to fit into the norm of society. I had a parent who made me feel like I was never good enough.  I have been in relationships where I was put down, treated like a servant, abused mentally, emotionally, verbally and physically.  Metallica’s song, “Broken, Beat & Scarred” and Whitesnake’s “Here I Go Again” had become my theme songs.  I have been on a 4-year journey of trying to break free of the fear of being me and who I am supposed to be. I had a HUGE breakthrough last month in several areas where this had affected my life and now I feel so free to be the real me.

I finally realized I was treated the way I was because I ALLOWED IT! I allowed the disrespect because I wanted to fit in. I allowed the abuse because I was afraid to stand up for myself. I finally realized I am a uniquely created individual not meant to fit into the mold others were trying to shove me into. I could not live my life’s purpose because I was not being the person I was meant to be here on this earth. My first step was to forgive, not the people who had wronged me,  to forgive MYSELF for allowing them to manipulate me into the situations that caused me pain. Once I did this, the pain disappeared. Now when thoughts of certain people in my life come to mind, the story has changed and I no longer feel the anger, bitterness or pain. That in itself has brought me so much freedom in my soul.  Once you have the freedom in your soul, the other areas of your life fall into alignment and life becomes beautiful and amazing!



Letting Go

Good Morning Dear Beautiful Souls!

Have you ever wondered what your life would be like if you let go of all of your fears and starting living the life you were intended to?  I used to sit and ponder the “what ifs” and could never see past the life experiences and how they had affected me.  I am here to tell you today that life beyond is beautiful and amazing!

Growing up I lived in a conundrum.  I had had one parent who praised everything and the other tore everything I did down.  Living in such confusion caused me to question and overthink everything.  I found myself working so hard trying to please the one who found fault in everything I did, In the process, I learned to “feel” nothing I did was right.  It was that feeling I carried into my adult life.  I became a “people pleaser”.  I was so busy trying to be what everyone else expected me to be and do what they expected, I completely lost the person who I was supposed to be; the person I was sent here to this earth at this time to be.  Every time that person tried to emerge, I  would stuff her back down.  No, I can’t do that, say that, be that because it would make me a disappointment to those around me.  I can’t let the real me be seen or heard because she might offend someone.  As time progressed, and that person inside me continually tried to fight her way out, it caused me to be resentful, spiteful, and angry.

It is my belief we are uniquely made with a specific purpose to accomplish.  When we are born, we sometimes forget our purpose in the process of birth.   When our soul starts to remember it’s purpose it will try to emerge, but sometimes the things we are taught by our parents, peers, and society will cause us not to pick up the torch and follow the path.  Instead, we follow the path of least resistance not wanting to disrupt the norm.   Yet there comes a time when we come to a crossroad in our lives and we have to make a decision.  My crossroad experience appeared 4 years ago and I had to make the decision which road I would take.  One of my all-time favorite poems is “Road Less Traveled” by Robert Frost.  As I stood at my “crossroad”  I examined the possibilities down each path.  I could either remain stagnated on the path I was on, a path of resentment, bitterness, and anger, or I could explore the “road less traveled” and explore new possibilities of freedom from the things that had held me back all those years.  I chose the “road less traveled” and today I am experiencing a freedom I never had before.  It has been a LONG road and the journey has not been the easiest.  I started it with lots of baggage.  Some of the bags I just dropped along the way.  Others had to be unpacked and the contents burned in the fire of purification.  I am so grateful I chose the path I did.  I have been able to release the things that held me back and now I have grown the wings to soar to new heights.  No more walking through the mire of the mundane.  I now fly above it.




“Sometimes when we’re angry we say things we never meant to say…those words are enough to break a heart and injure a soul.  Anger makes our brain work less and our tongue works more.  Once said those words can’t be taken back and sometimes break a healthy relationship.  So, think before you speak and when angry keep silent…Your silence may hurt the ones you love but your nasty words can break them and damage them beyond repair.”  Neena Gupta

First, I want to apologize.  I have been tied up trying to help an organization, I am sorry to say, and the whole thing ended very badly.  Instead of being a creation that would bring joy to people, it ended up being a burden and in the end exploded into a barrage of ill-spoken words which cut to the core, damaged relationships and wounded hearts and souls.

I am a strong believer in using your voice and not allowing others to control you.  However, there are times when it is better to remain silent, especially if your words are going to be damaging to others.  In the above situation, maybe I should have spoken out more.  In a group situation, it’s good to have a leader, but everyone should have an equal voice.  We allowed one person to have all the power and this is what ultimately brought the demise of the group.  When others started standing up, speaking out, the “leader” decided to cut us all to the core with her words.  The whole group collapsed, and in the wake, damage that cannot be repaired.  Forgiveness can be saught, yet the scars remain.  If you are the one who is wounded, though it may be a hard thing to do, forgive.  Not for the person who wounded you, but for your own soul.

So, dear souls, always be mindful of your words.  And as my Grandmother always told me, if your words do not make others feel good, stay silent.




Let’s Be Real

Blessed New Moon, Dear Souls,

I believe in being completely authentic.  I don’t know about you but one of my pet peeves is fake people.  You know the ones I mean, on the outside they are all smiles and make you think things are just hunky dory hiding behind their personalities, their false faces, their false words. In reality,  if you could look through the frosted glass of their lives, they are a mess.  Their relationships are a mess, their house is a mess, their finances are a mess.  They tell you how to live your lives and cast judgment on you, yet theirs is nothing but chaos behind closed doors.

I will make you a promise right here and now, I will always be authentic.  I won’t tell you to do something I haven’t already done or am doing now to better my life.  I struggle with or have struggled with things just the same as you do.  Many things I have overcome, and there are things I am still struggling greatly with.  It is part of who we are and our purpose here on this place called Earth.  We didn’t come here to be perfectly ascended beings.  We came here to learn and grow, and in doing so help others on their paths also.  It is not our responsibility to walk their path for them or tell them how to walk it.  As we become enlightened in some area, it is our responsibility to share that with others, yet, we are to not demand they accept it as their own.  The nuggets we learn along our path may only be for us, our own treasure, or they may be meant to be shared for the betterment of the whole tribe.

My grandmother used to tell me a story that illustrates this principle.

A young man had been hunting for many days and was unable to get any meat for his tribe because animals were scarce in the area.  Finally, a rabbit ran across his path and he was able to kill it.  He looked down at the rabbit in his hands thinking it would not be enough for his whole tribe, so he sat down, cooked and ate it.

I immediately judged this young man.  How selfish of him to eat the whole rabbit himself when his tribe was also hungry and they could have made stew and everyone had something to eat.  My grandmother patted my hand and admonished me for my judgment.  ” If he had not consumed that small rabbit, he wouldn’t have had the energy to go on and look for something bigger for the tribe.  Sometimes we are given small morsels for ourselves to give us the energy and knowledge to go on and discover bigger and better things to share with the tribe.  We cannot serve the tribe if we are starving ourselves.

What does this have to do with being authentic?  If you are putting on a false face to the world, making everyone think you have it all together so you are an authority on how to tell them how to run their lives, yet, your life is falling apart behind the scenes, you are not only robbing yourself of your energy, you are also robbing your tribe of the bigger blessing.   Keep it real and be willing to admit you don’t have all the answers.  Not only will it gain you the respect of your tribe, but it will also gain you respect and honor of the Universe from where your blessings and abundance flows.







Greetings and Salutations Beautiful Souls

First, I must apologize for my lack of posting these past few weeks.  I allowed life to give me a beat down and cloud my focus.  The saying “if it is too good to be true, it probably is,” came to life for us a couple weeks ago.  A friend, or so we thought, bought a bar and told us we were part owners with no monetary investment.  We learned this to mean, “I own the bar, but you do all the work.”  After a week of trying to help him run the place properly, we had to walk away.  We spent many hours, and sleepless nights, during that week trying to take this young man and help him become a successful business owner, to no avail.  The end result was my ending up very ill.  I have a chronic liver problem stemming from internal injuries from my accident in 2112.  When I get worn down physically, the least little bug can be catastrophic for me, and my body rebels against me.  I was literally down for a week with the flu bug and in the meantime, my liver and pancreas trying to shut down.  It was not pleasant, to say the least.  Thanks to my wonderful daughter and her kitchen magic, I have made a full recovery.

Complacency, the acid that can deteriorate your foundation.  If we allow yourselves to become complacent in just one area of our lives, it can cause a cascading effect in every area.   This is why it is so important we practice mindfulness in our everyday lives.   Starting before we even get out of bed, our first thought should be of gratitude for even a little rest during the night.  If you are like me, I have nights when I am awakened several times during the night and feel like I have had no rest at all.  Yet even the short intervals of rest are better than no rest at all.   I had become so complacent in my daily life that I didn’t even realize my foundation was cracking.  Then something comes along and BAM, you are not in any position to handle it mentally, physically or spiritually.

There is not much you can do when you are sick, except sit and think.  I did a lot of self-examining during this time of illness and realized I had been lax in a lot of my daily rituals.   Gratitude, being thankful for the small things.  Self-care, taking care of oneself body, mind and spirit.  Sharing love-the art of serving others.  I had gotten so wrapped up in other things, I forgot to daily reinforce my foundation.   I allowed my chakra system to become completely unbalanced, which caused my physical system to be unbalanced allowing the opening for dis-ease to enter my temple.

Today, I renewed my commitment to me and my daily rituals.  I renewed my commitment to being mindful in all I do.  I renewed my commitment to having a heart of gratitude.  I am renewing my commitment to you, my tribe, to be of love and service to you.   Will you join me in rebuilding the foundation of our lives?   A temple without a good foundation will crumble and fall and then it is of no use or service to anyone.