But How?

Sometimes we are faced with challenges in our lives that make our faith falter.  We want to believe the Universe has our back and will supply everything we need but instead of just trusting, we want to know the “but hows?”  How am I going to pay for this car repair?  How am I going to pay for that doctor bill?  What am I going to do now?  Then we go about trying to force things in the natural when if we just believe, the Universe* already has a plan to work it out for us.

For example, you are looking for the perfect mate for your life.  You know exactly what qualities you want so you go about searching for that person.  You go on dating sights and find a person who is a perfect match according to the sight’s standards.  And all the while, the Universe has been working behind the scenes to facilitate the meeting of you and the “perfect” person for you to meet at the right time, and yet you are accepting societies standards because we are impatient.  I admit I have done this myself.  I had this idea of who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, my set of standards.  Then I began doubting myself.  Maybe my standards were too high.  Was I expecting too much?  This led me to three very damaging relationships of emotional, mental and physical abuse.  In my quest to be accepted and loved, I settled for far less than what I deserved and received treatment I DID NOT deserve.  It was only when I finally gave up and accepted the fact I was meant to be single (or so I thought), the Universe was able to work it’s magic for me and sent my “perfect man” to me.  It just happened to be my first love, the boy I fell in love with when I was 13 but couldn’t make adults understand then it was our destiny.  Thirty- seven years after my Dad broke us up, the Universe brought us back together 3 years ago and it has been the happiest 3 years of my life.  Since then I have learned to stop asking “HOW” and just trust it to happen.

Now don’t misunderstand me here.  I am not saying we just ask the Universe for something, then sit on our ass and expect it to be handed to us.  When you make a declaration, decision or set an intention, you also have to put action to it.  In the case of the story above, I gave up trying to find love on my own because I realized I had to work on me first.  I was in no place emotionally to be in a committed relationship with anyone.  You first have to love yourself before you can love others.  As I said, I had been through 3 abusive relationships in a span of 6 years and blamed the men for the problem.  I finally realized I was the problem.  I had no self-esteem, no self-love, and because of that, I allowed them to abuse me.  Yes, that’s right, I said: “I allowed”.  No one can do something to us unless we allow it.  If you are angry, it is because you allow yourself to be angry.  If you are sad, it is because you allow yourself to dwell there.  It is okay to feel those feelings, but it is most important to process the feelings and let them go.  Do not dwell in the victim mentality mire.  Don’t worry about the “how’s”, just set your intentions, take action to the best of your ability, be grateful for the things that are going right in your life and trust the Universe to take care of the rest.  The Universe gives you exactly what your thoughts and words ask for.  Practice this week being grateful for the good things in your life.  Dwell on those things.  If it is hard, start with something simple like being thankful for the air you breathe and that your body is so wonderfully made that you don’t have to think to breathe, it just happens.  Then you can build from there.  Do you have a roof over your head at night?  Did you eat something today?  Start with the little things in life and work up to the bigger things.  The more we concentrate on the positive and farther way the negative will go.

Wishing you all a very blessed week!


*When I use the term Universe, I am speaking of whatever Divine power (God, Goddess, Great Spirit etc.) you ascribe to.  We are pagan and believe everyone has the ability to be God or Goddess-like. It is all in how you live your life and how you interact with the Universe around you; humans, animals, plant-life etc.  I believe I am not a human being having a spiritual experience, but a spirit being having a human experience.  It is my mission in life to remember that which I forgot in the process of human birth and my passion is to help others do the same by helping them navigate through the difficulties of life.

Gaining Freedom in Your Soul

Blessings Dear Souls,

Yesterday I spoke about letting go. It is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I was the girl in school who everybody loved to either pick on or ignore. I was never good enough for the social classes, wasn’t bad enough for the rough crowd, wasn’t physically able to fit in with the jocks, I wasn’t smart enough to hang with the intellectuals. Because of that, I grew up feeling I had to be what others wanted just to fit into the norm of society. I had a parent who made me feel like I was never good enough.  I have been in relationships where I was put down, treated like a servant, abused mentally, emotionally, verbally and physically.  Metallica’s song, “Broken, Beat & Scarred” and Whitesnake’s “Here I Go Again” had become my theme songs.  I have been on a 4-year journey of trying to break free of the fear of being me and who I am supposed to be. I had a HUGE breakthrough last month in several areas where this had affected my life and now I feel so free to be the real me.

I finally realized I was treated the way I was because I ALLOWED IT! I allowed the disrespect because I wanted to fit in. I allowed the abuse because I was afraid to stand up for myself. I finally realized I am a uniquely created individual not meant to fit into the mold others were trying to shove me into. I could not live my life’s purpose because I was not being the person I was meant to be here on this earth. My first step was to forgive, not the people who had wronged me,  to forgive MYSELF for allowing them to manipulate me into the situations that caused me pain. Once I did this, the pain disappeared. Now when thoughts of certain people in my life come to mind, the story has changed and I no longer feel the anger, bitterness or pain. That in itself has brought me so much freedom in my soul.  Once you have the freedom in your soul, the other areas of your life fall into alignment and life becomes beautiful and amazing!



Letting Go

Good Morning Dear Beautiful Souls!

Have you ever wondered what your life would be like if you let go of all of your fears and starting living the life you were intended to?  I used to sit and ponder the “what ifs” and could never see past the life experiences and how they had affected me.  I am here to tell you today that life beyond is beautiful and amazing!

Growing up I lived in a conundrum.  I had had one parent who praised everything and the other tore everything I did down.  Living in such confusion caused me to question and overthink everything.  I found myself working so hard trying to please the one who found fault in everything I did, In the process, I learned to “feel” nothing I did was right.  It was that feeling I carried into my adult life.  I became a “people pleaser”.  I was so busy trying to be what everyone else expected me to be and do what they expected, I completely lost the person who I was supposed to be; the person I was sent here to this earth at this time to be.  Every time that person tried to emerge, I  would stuff her back down.  No, I can’t do that, say that, be that because it would make me a disappointment to those around me.  I can’t let the real me be seen or heard because she might offend someone.  As time progressed, and that person inside me continually tried to fight her way out, it caused me to be resentful, spiteful, and angry.

It is my belief we are uniquely made with a specific purpose to accomplish.  When we are born, we sometimes forget our purpose in the process of birth.   When our soul starts to remember it’s purpose it will try to emerge, but sometimes the things we are taught by our parents, peers, and society will cause us not to pick up the torch and follow the path.  Instead, we follow the path of least resistance not wanting to disrupt the norm.   Yet there comes a time when we come to a crossroad in our lives and we have to make a decision.  My crossroad experience appeared 4 years ago and I had to make the decision which road I would take.  One of my all-time favorite poems is “Road Less Traveled” by Robert Frost.  As I stood at my “crossroad”  I examined the possibilities down each path.  I could either remain stagnated on the path I was on, a path of resentment, bitterness, and anger, or I could explore the “road less traveled” and explore new possibilities of freedom from the things that had held me back all those years.  I chose the “road less traveled” and today I am experiencing a freedom I never had before.  It has been a LONG road and the journey has not been the easiest.  I started it with lots of baggage.  Some of the bags I just dropped along the way.  Others had to be unpacked and the contents burned in the fire of purification.  I am so grateful I chose the path I did.  I have been able to release the things that held me back and now I have grown the wings to soar to new heights.  No more walking through the mire of the mundane.  I now fly above it.




“Sometimes when we’re angry we say things we never meant to say…those words are enough to break a heart and injure a soul.  Anger makes our brain work less and our tongue works more.  Once said those words can’t be taken back and sometimes break a healthy relationship.  So, think before you speak and when angry keep silent…Your silence may hurt the ones you love but your nasty words can break them and damage them beyond repair.”  Neena Gupta

First, I want to apologize.  I have been tied up trying to help an organization, I am sorry to say, and the whole thing ended very badly.  Instead of being a creation that would bring joy to people, it ended up being a burden and in the end exploded into a barrage of ill-spoken words which cut to the core, damaged relationships and wounded hearts and souls.

I am a strong believer in using your voice and not allowing others to control you.  However, there are times when it is better to remain silent, especially if your words are going to be damaging to others.  In the above situation, maybe I should have spoken out more.  In a group situation, it’s good to have a leader, but everyone should have an equal voice.  We allowed one person to have all the power and this is what ultimately brought the demise of the group.  When others started standing up, speaking out, the “leader” decided to cut us all to the core with her words.  The whole group collapsed, and in the wake, damage that cannot be repaired.  Forgiveness can be saught, yet the scars remain.  If you are the one who is wounded, though it may be a hard thing to do, forgive.  Not for the person who wounded you, but for your own soul.

So, dear souls, always be mindful of your words.  And as my Grandmother always told me, if your words do not make others feel good, stay silent.




Let’s Be Real

Blessed New Moon, Dear Souls,

I believe in being completely authentic.  I don’t know about you but one of my pet peeves is fake people.  You know the ones I mean, on the outside they are all smiles and make you think things are just hunky dory hiding behind their personalities, their false faces, their false words. In reality,  if you could look through the frosted glass of their lives, they are a mess.  Their relationships are a mess, their house is a mess, their finances are a mess.  They tell you how to live your lives and cast judgment on you, yet theirs is nothing but chaos behind closed doors.

I will make you a promise right here and now, I will always be authentic.  I won’t tell you to do something I haven’t already done or am doing now to better my life.  I struggle with or have struggled with things just the same as you do.  Many things I have overcome, and there are things I am still struggling greatly with.  It is part of who we are and our purpose here on this place called Earth.  We didn’t come here to be perfectly ascended beings.  We came here to learn and grow, and in doing so help others on their paths also.  It is not our responsibility to walk their path for them or tell them how to walk it.  As we become enlightened in some area, it is our responsibility to share that with others, yet, we are to not demand they accept it as their own.  The nuggets we learn along our path may only be for us, our own treasure, or they may be meant to be shared for the betterment of the whole tribe.

My grandmother used to tell me a story that illustrates this principle.

A young man had been hunting for many days and was unable to get any meat for his tribe because animals were scarce in the area.  Finally, a rabbit ran across his path and he was able to kill it.  He looked down at the rabbit in his hands thinking it would not be enough for his whole tribe, so he sat down, cooked and ate it.

I immediately judged this young man.  How selfish of him to eat the whole rabbit himself when his tribe was also hungry and they could have made stew and everyone had something to eat.  My grandmother patted my hand and admonished me for my judgment.  ” If he had not consumed that small rabbit, he wouldn’t have had the energy to go on and look for something bigger for the tribe.  Sometimes we are given small morsels for ourselves to give us the energy and knowledge to go on and discover bigger and better things to share with the tribe.  We cannot serve the tribe if we are starving ourselves.

What does this have to do with being authentic?  If you are putting on a false face to the world, making everyone think you have it all together so you are an authority on how to tell them how to run their lives, yet, your life is falling apart behind the scenes, you are not only robbing yourself of your energy, you are also robbing your tribe of the bigger blessing.   Keep it real and be willing to admit you don’t have all the answers.  Not only will it gain you the respect of your tribe, but it will also gain you respect and honor of the Universe from where your blessings and abundance flows.