Good Morning Dear Beautiful Souls!
Have you ever wondered what your life would be like if you let go of all of your fears and starting living the life you were intended to? I used to sit and ponder the “what ifs” and could never see past the life experiences and how they had affected me. I am here to tell you today that life beyond is beautiful and amazing!
Growing up I lived in a conundrum. I had had one parent who praised everything and the other tore everything I did down. Living in such confusion caused me to question and overthink everything. I found myself working so hard trying to please the one who found fault in everything I did, In the process, I learned to “feel” nothing I did was right. It was that feeling I carried into my adult life. I became a “people pleaser”. I was so busy trying to be what everyone else expected me to be and do what they expected, I completely lost the person who I was supposed to be; the person I was sent here to this earth at this time to be. Every time that person tried to emerge, I would stuff her back down. No, I can’t do that, say that, be that because it would make me a disappointment to those around me. I can’t let the real me be seen or heard because she might offend someone. As time progressed, and that person inside me continually tried to fight her way out, it caused me to be resentful, spiteful, and angry.
It is my belief we are uniquely made with a specific purpose to accomplish. When we are born, we sometimes forget our purpose in the process of birth. When our soul starts to remember it’s purpose it will try to emerge, but sometimes the things we are taught by our parents, peers, and society will cause us not to pick up the torch and follow the path. Instead, we follow the path of least resistance not wanting to disrupt the norm. Yet there comes a time when we come to a crossroad in our lives and we have to make a decision. My crossroad experience appeared 4 years ago and I had to make the decision which road I would take. One of my all-time favorite poems is “Road Less Traveled” by Robert Frost. As I stood at my “crossroad” I examined the possibilities down each path. I could either remain stagnated on the path I was on, a path of resentment, bitterness, and anger, or I could explore the “road less traveled” and explore new possibilities of freedom from the things that had held me back all those years. I chose the “road less traveled” and today I am experiencing a freedom I never had before. It has been a LONG road and the journey has not been the easiest. I started it with lots of baggage. Some of the bags I just dropped along the way. Others had to be unpacked and the contents burned in the fire of purification. I am so grateful I chose the path I did. I have been able to release the things that held me back and now I have grown the wings to soar to new heights. No more walking through the mire of the mundane. I now fly above it.